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SEKALI CINTA TETAP CINTA by Helena
sekali aku mencinta
tak kubiarkan jadi benci
tergerak hatiku berkata
cinta datang karna dirinya
setelah lama berdua
mengapa baru kini jujur
tentang cinta yg kau inginkan
dan kau menuntut kesucian
reff:
bagaimana bila aku
bukan perawan spt yg engkau mau
mungkin saja dulu ku pernah ternoda
apa bedanya bila aku mencinta
bisakah bila kau hapus
sempitnya pikiranmu ttg akhir cinta
seandainya dulu kau berlumur dosa
sekali ku cinta tetap cinta
setelah lama berdua
mengapa baru kini jujur
tentang cinta yg kau inginkan
dan kau menuntut kesucian
kembali ke reff
for all guys, boys, and everyone
the night was not so cold even it was rainy when two persons sit on certain rock of their meeting point. they are a woman and a guy who are so close pshycologically or phisically. the guy has opened the discussion some minutes ago and the woman just listen in her smile until the guy said something about his friend.
“one of my friend said that now he is in free sex activity with some girls, another friend have got intercourse with his girlfriend in anytime, and the other said that the one i love probably has lost her virginity. all of this make me affraid and upset.”
“why so?”
“I don’t know, i never think that it would be a big deal for me, but in fact it makes me upset”
“well, as a friend, do they change? or their activity has change your atitude towards them?”
“………….. (no answer)……………………..”
“now, let me know what do you think of me!”
“well, you are a nice girl, smart as usual, never mind to be my trash, and you are one of my lovely”
“ok, thank you, but will it change if i say that i’m not a virgin anymore? or will our relationship be different?”
“………….(no answer again)……………….”
“let me tell you, if men do not judge by his virginity, so do with women. i will never be agree with free sex either but one thing, you cannot judge somebody by her or his virginity, cause no body have right to scorring others live.”
and the guy stare at the woman who sit beside him, smilling and take a deep breath before give her the last answer of the discussion.
“baby, honestly i’ve predicted the possibility of yours, and i reallyze you are still the girl i know, your still a nice girl, a smart one, and of course lovely, but about our rellationship, i’m affraid it will be different.”
the woman take her breath. stare at nothing in front of her eyes, smile to a cynical smile of her lips.
“i never think that i get involved to a close minded and a stupid person.”
malam itu (25/11) kuhabiskan malamku dengan Noe, ditengah hujan deras yang mengguyur Ambarawa, di depan sebuah pelataran doa. malam itu pertama kalinya setelah dua puluh dua kali dalam hidupku aku menghabiskan malam special ini dengan dia. dan dia juga orang pertama yang mengucapkan kalimat itu, "Happy Birthday sis." tepat keesokan harinya (26/11) jam 00:00:01 hanya itu, gak ada yang lain, gak ada doa doa sepanjang bengawan solo yang biasanya mengikuti. kami habis kan pagi yang tersisa dengan barbagi kisah, berbagi masalah, berbagi makanan, dan berbagi banyak hal yang lain. agak siangan dapat sms dari sita dengan ucapan yang sama, trus dari P3s my lovely sist. thanx sist. jam 10an mau pulang ke semarang males jadi pulang ke sala3 aja. datang datang dapat tonjokkan bahu sebagai "ritual kluarga" dari bapak )tiap tahun kayak gitu masih suka kaget juga) bis itu dapet ucapan n kado dari mbah kungku tersayang sebuah jaket parasut yang lumayan banget buat hujan2an (tau aja mbah kalo cucunya hoby maen air hujan) jam2 makan siang ada mc dariseseorang yang belakangan ketahuan dari someone yang lagi di luar negeri (ditunggu kadonya ya sayang) jam duaan pulang ke semarang duluan karena bapak ma ibu masih mau di sala3 (iya lah mereka naik motor). beres2 rumah yang udah ditinggal seharian sambil nunggu bapak ma ibu pulang. pas mau tidur (sekitar jam 10an kali) Teresa nelpon dari BA. ngoborl lumayan lama dan akhirnya diputus karen B dah nungguin minta di sms n mau nelphone kayaknya. bis itu nutup hari dengan tidur nyenyak tanpa mimpi…………..
hhmmmmm ………………………. what a beautifull day………………..
akhirnya genap dua dua nih…………….
untuk semua orang di sekitarku
now, i just wanna ask you
when you ask or even order somebody to respect you
when you ask them to give you the highest honnor
have you respect them the way you want to be respected?
have you show them that you are good enough to be respected?
have you respect yourself?
have you????
dear my dearest brother,
bro,you’ve admitted that waiting for something is both bored and painfull. now i tell you my dearest brother, nobody told you that waitng for something or someone is something easy to do, nobody told you that this process is fun. nobody baby, even me, myself never told you bout it.
you know i’ve passed this process with someone (that you recognice very well). i’ve passed the process in uneasy way. i did it through the pain, the hatred, the angry, and a lot of tears. yeah bro you really know that i did it. and i know you’ll did it (hope in better way, better process and better goal than me). you’ll did it on your way. and when the proces is passed, you’ll know you’ve got your "star" or maybe your own star is comeback for you.
